Hi Harford.
As the others said, it does get easier. I drank for almost 30 yrs. Always seeking the pleasant, calm feeling that I once got from it. In the end I was completely dependent on it - and it was making me miserable. The old euphoria it once gave me was never coming back. It was so hard to admit that - but once I did, I felt free. It was exhausting to try and manage my drinking - so much better to have it out of my life. You can do this.