Hey sunday,
I used to worry about where my ex would end up. I found out. He wasn't sleeping under his desk at work like he told me. He was sleeping at his gf's house.
Was he thinking about me or worrying about me? Not in the least.
Was he worried about how I would survive after the divorce with my small pension. Not in the least. Only thing that he was worried about was that he might have to pay me alimony !!!!!
Just know that I do understand how you feel, and I want to hear anything you have to say. I went through it.
Also know that sometimes we post here from the head and not the heart.
It's difficult sometimes when in a relationship like yours, and mine to listen to the head, because our hearts hurt so much.
I personally think you are one terrific lady and I am so glad that I met you on this forum. You have a lot going for you.
((((((((hugs)))))))