It is baffling, that is for sure. You have to do things on your own timeline and for what is right for you. While we can give you input, encourage you, send you hugs and lots of love, that is the extent of our job here. We are a constant sounding board for you, but actual decisions are for you to make. There is no rush. This is no marathon, it's your life.
No matter what we will not judge you. We will not tell you that your decision is wrong or right. We will support you.
Tight Hugs.