Really funny because I am an only child .....it is hard for me to put the focus on me. Maybe that could be a result of being an only....I always wanted someone else around to focus on, to share with. I have lived alone most of my life and he is my first real relationship. I feel a bond, responsibility to him. He really has nobody else. I have given up much for him. I don't know if I am ready to cut him completely out of my life. I just need something to change ....I know I shouldn't use that word with a A but unless he changes something this relationship, his living here, his safety and life are all at risk. He knows it but the beer is too tempting. Unreal and baffling disease!