Originally Posted by
MasterSkywalker 
im very nervous about telling my personal information, its always been who I am. ive been sober 31 days... been doing it mostly on my own, I don't do well in groups of people. I get very physically ill when im around them. I have other issues but I don't like to talk about them...
Your reasons are common among alcoholics and with each day of sobriety they may change as many become less anxious and may see the need to work on the reasons we drink to begin with.
For me it was to relax and be comfortable in my surroundings and social settings which made me self conscious and shy. It worked for a period and an increased amount was needed to accomplish the same results until the amount consumed me and it became necessary to maintain a high intake.
By me going to meetings, even if I didn’t want to, I learned how to deal with life on lifes terms, not mine. The end result which takes time is a feeling of being comfortable in my own skin, most of the time.
BE WELL