Well, crushed....maybe it would keep peace in the house if you were to forget that any of this ever happened and never mention it again......If.....If you could turn yourself into a stump or a complete doormat. Even if you could....at what price??
what good is it being with someone if you are constantly tormented from within?
A men's alanon group might be a good idea for you, right now. You could probably use some support, right now.
dandylion