Scared!!!
Today is day 5 without a drink. Today is also the day I usually relapse. I'm so scared I won't make it through the day. I feel like I'm waiting for the "boogie man" to jump out and get me. It's terrifying! Logically, I find it insane that I am scared that alcohol is gonna "get" me but it ALWAYS catches me off guard on this day. Once I get that craving or obsession it's like I'm being pulled under the ocean by a strong current and can't get out.
Does this sound familiar? Does anyone have advice? My normal drinking pattern is every several days starting about 4:45 with a 6 pack and then off to a bar to drink to oblivion or until something really bad happens. I hate alcohol! It wants to kill me!
I HAVE to make it through today!!!
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