Well its been almost three months since I posted and she's still drinking every night and she's still on the F_ing job with the piece of dung! So here I am again asking everyone for advice. Things are much better at home we are talking and are much closer and haven't had an argument in at least in 3-4 weeks, I'm assuming because I don't talk about her drinking or her job. I didn't realize that because of her actions/drinking over the past 8-10 years that I had built up such resentment of her drinking and her behavior. I realized its the disease making her drink. The emotional affair was a wake call for our marrige. As lillamy mentioned above I made the choice to trust her, as we've gotten closer its easier to trust. So here's my dilemma, lately, I feel that I'm faking it, because I keep having thoughts/feelings she's lying. Thanks in advance to everyone