I never really understood the "progressive" part of this until my last binge in May. Then when I was really honest with myself and looked back at the last 3.5 years I saw how it progressed. I was sober for 18mths in 2010/2011...then started "moderating"...and I was able to (at times)...but the last year...when I actually thought about it...I can see now how the binges were getting closer and longer and worse. It also started seeping into my work life and eventually landed me a 2nd DUI on Mothers day. That last relapse, I didn't see coming at all. I hadn't drank for 6 weeks prior to that. It was so bad, that to this day, I STILL have no recollection of even purchasing the wine. Not one single memory.
scary eh?
hang in and keep posting. This truly is a sneaky, conniving, PATIENT disease. It lies. It hides. It makes you think you have it under it control, when in reality, no you don't. Being vigilant is my top priority now. Cuz this thing will ambush you with no warning!