Originally Posted by
Stung 
I'm still not ready to end my marriage yet. Although, I cannot articulate why not. I'm married to someone who only thinks of himself all of the time. I'm not really sure what I'm getting out of this partnership right now and I know that this isn't how I want to spend the rest of my life but I cannot really see how a divorce will positively impact my or my childrens' lives right now either.
It took me a long time to get there and I am still not 100% all the way there. If you ever decide to, it will only be when or if you are ready. Not a minute before.
I really wanted the "light switch" experience of it's over that so many have had, I didn't get it though. Some days are a still a struggle but the good days are far more frequent.
But when he stopped trying, I finally accepted I had to as well. I hate addiction!!
Eta - the more I worked on me, the more I wanted better!