In my best interests...
No... no it would not be. I'm trying to build a legacy for my kids. She's living just for today. It just doesn't match up... But yes. I continue to lurk. I continue to read the stories. I know exactly what happens moving forward should I choose the route of an addict's partner. I'm lucky in that regard. I have a choice. Sadly, reading around it seems that no addict is the proverbial 'unique snowflake'. It always ends somehow in prolonged pain, suffering and emotional stress. My heart feels as if something *could* be different if her life *didn't* revolve around drugs. Yet, I know logically that her life (for too long for my liking, anyway... years...) will ALWAYS revolve around drugs, whether it's doing them or recovering from them. I continue to lurk, and that's what I see. No... it's not a good path for my kids.
Anyway, you folks are the best. I'm so glad to have found you to help me make sense of this.