Originally Posted by
trachemys 
I've never been "on track". Even before I started drinking and drugging at 16, I was off track. Biologically.
Continued as I missed the editing deadline
That lead to me going farther off track chemically. By 21, I had my already screwed-up brain chemistry so far "off track" that my current condition is no surprise. If I'm lucky, I'll never be back on the track I've lived on all my life.
I have to make a new track. I have to make a whole new me.