Well, she was...even though I know she wasn't perfect...she was just ill.....that's all. She had that horrible childhood like your mom had. But I know she loved me. The last few weeks before she died she told me that she was sorry that she wasn't the best mother for me. She said she tried......so that is why it's all water under the bridge. I just hugged her very tightly and told her she was the best mother.....at least for me she was.....thats what I told her...and I meant it too.