when i did my step 5 i had a list of all the things i did wrong and i confessed them all to my sponsor
i was full of guilt and shame for what i did and my sponsor never even rasied so much as an eyebrow
after it all he simply said tear up that list as its now in the past, from today onwards try to not make those same things happen again in your life
from today onwards try and live a good honest life in all you do
and thats what i do today i still make mistakes but i dont do them on purpose or if i do at times i soon know in my heart i have done them and see i have done it again so i have to put it right soon as i can
but the point is here i have to stop living in the past i can not change it
so living it on and on in my head will not solve anything
get rid of the rubbish holding you back and enjoy freedom from it
from today onwards just try to be good and kind to people and practise it and i can beat you will start to feel good inside of you and one day you will start to even like who you are
find someone to dump your rubbish on and burn it as its in the past nothing can be done to change it at all
good luck to you