Advice?
You should be proud of those 80 days and have a great birthday!
Obviously you're doing something right.
No sense in mulling over past mistakes.
We all have regrets. I could write several chapters, myself.
The past is gone forever, no sense in wasting time getting
yourself worried over it. Move on. Feel your feelings!
Exist in your present state, celebrating your new life!
Have a superb Happy Birthday on Tuesday!