Ah, the guilt that I was leaving him....I had that, too.
I did not have an attorney as there were no children and frankly, we were poor as church mice. I should also say that my husband, at the time, was not an alcoholic. Although I heard from his mother that he did drink alcoholically during and after the divorce so who knows?
Guilt is such a funny thing. My husband had an affair, he filed for divorce, he had an attorney, and yet I felt guilty - what a waste of my time and energy that was.