O RB...you are normal. What does that even mean? If you never mess up at anything, if you did not have wants, needs, meaning, that would not be normal. See it for what it is, get back up and move forward. That's the only choice.
So you are not perfect. Do you know anyone who is? You have been under lots of stress, give yourself a break.
We are here for you. Hold tight.
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