I'm so sorry AO! Are you home now? Are you still drinking? I've been thinking about you lately because I haven't seen you posting and I always find your posts to be so inspirational! You are amazing, you'll be able to stop again if you haven't already. Have you gone to a therapist? Apparently CBT really helps. I have terrible anxiety as well and have been having a hard time as of late and it's hard to be so "Raw" as you've described without any relief. I think I understand, I can barely listen to the news I am too sensitive to anything terrible that happens. Please keep posting. Sending lots of love and support your way. xoxoxoxoxoxo