Originally Posted by
alphaomega 
I am vehemently opposed to daily meds for personal reasons, but I will resort to an occasional Xanax (I'm talking maybe once or twice a month) if I can no longer bear it.
Yet you can rationalize drinking somehow to self medicate...? Don't get me wrong, i'm very strongly against regular meds too if it's avoidable. But if you honestly look at it for face value - perhaps a low dose of something on a regular basis would even things out? And the consequences of not doing it could be catastrophic if you go into full blown alcohol relapse.
All i'm saying is to keep an open mind about possible treatment options.