Yes Decbaby and TE. I find myself doing that too. I'm so afraid to get on here and tell people I'm struggling. It's not an everyday thing but there are times that are higher stress times. Even boredom can sometimes trigger me. I feel like I need to be excited all the time about recovery. It is exciting....at first. It's like the first year is a honeymoon period. So seeing the world without the fogginess of opiates was like looking at it for the first time. All those firsts...like going on vacation without being high, or watching a movie in a theatre without popping pills first. It was all so new and exciting. After that it starts becoming normal again...so it isn't as exciting or fresh. I guess that's what I'm struggling with now, after 1 year 4 months. The newness has worn off and I'm left with plain ole life. Ha!
Has anyone felt like this?