I honestly do not think about it on a daily basis.
In times of struggle and difficulties I think "I know what I used to do, but I am not that person anymore" and that means so much more than just picking up a bottle.
I have to remember I am not the person I was a year ago. I don't think the same which means I don't act or react the same. I am in no way perfect and I have a ways to go. I make mistakes all the time but today I do not let them define me. I learn, change and grow.
One day at a time. Progress not perfection.