When I stopped drinking I found the real me and I sorta like her.
Drinking to me was a mask. I hid and pretended behind the mask. It was very scary to remove the mask. I drank for 26 years. I was not even sure who I was and to be honest I am still finding out and I am still growing and changing.
Change is growth. I almost feel like a grown up but not quite...lol
You never now unless you try. It is not easy and it takes work but I can tell you that for me, everyday sober is a day worth living.