Welcome to the Forum sjpatrik!!
Drinking was a part of my life too, every evening after work I'd drink until bedtime, I did that for years, it was there for all occasions and seasons, funerals, weddings, stressful times, happy times, spring, summer, autumn, but that wasn't enough for me to keep it in my life, because it wasn't all positive, there were negatives also.
Change I agree is scary, the unknown can be stressful, but the reality was I still needed to change something about my drinking, non drinkers can find comfort in other things, as well as deal with loneliness, drinking is what we did to fill those gaps, but there are other ways, there must be, otherwise how do other people manage life.
You'll find loads of support here on SR!!
