Hello and as unfortunate as it is for you to be here, it is a good place to be.
From reading your post, I can feel your desperation and hopelessness. I suspect that most of us have been there at one point or another.
I learned that when I started to get totally and completely overwhelmed by the big picture, I needed to stop looking at it.
There is no guilt in finding small blessings and focusing on them for the time it takes to get your head back together.
I am a huge list maker and when I did take the time to write out all the things that I could control to make my life better, it looked a bit more manageable.
You know what you can't control.
Focus on what you can control to make your life, your week, your hour, your day or your minute better for you.
And dont' forget to breath. That is a big one for me.
((((hugs)))
Jenny