90 days clean and sober...
Well I made it to my 90th day today and I cant thank everyone enough for all your posts and words of wisdom that at times were the deciding factor in my not using that day... This disease can at times bring the strongest of man to his knees in a split second... The secret to my success is the will and want to remain CLEAN AND SOBER... Its not a daily struggle at all anymore but a LOOKED FORWARD TOO EVENT that I celebrate every morning with a kiss placed onto the love of my life's lips... Without her support I would have broken weak and used again because in the very beginning I had to search my very soul for a reason to remain clean in a world at that time that consisted of confusion and extreme pain for the stupid mindless terrible things i had done while using Heroin... 90 days ago my life was still upside down and I really felt like taking my life because i destroyed everything that was good and pure and i felt like there was no recovering from the damage I had done to not only myself but to others that loved me... I destroyed a loving relationship that I thought I would never again be able to have... I was a terrible partner that lied to a very loving woman and in the end she left me and Im not happy she did but it was the best for both of us. I DESTROYED TRUST... AND WITHOUT TRUST YOU HAVE ABSOLUTELY NOTHING regardless how great of a lover you think you were to her...When a man loves a woman he never puts a needle into her arm... When a man loves a woman HE NEVER LIES TO HER... The truth no matter how hard it will be for someone to accept is always the best policy. No matter the pain it will cause someone that someone will understand and respect you more for telling the truth especially when that someone knows how hard it must have been for you to tell the truth in the first place. There is no pain that time cannot lessen and soften... WHEN ONE DOOR SLAMS CLOSED IN YOUR FACE NEVER GIVE UP BECAUSE ANOTHER ONE HAS JUST OPENED BUT YOU MUST LOOK FOR IT... I look forward to getting my 90 day NA keychain tonight... I EARNED IT AND WILL WEAR IT PROUDLY... GOD BLESS ALL OF US... LOVE PAINLESS