It's a good point, I drank to escape all the things I lacked in my life, disappearing into a bottle every evening was a great way of not having to think of all those things.
Plus I sometimes think of drinking out of boredom, rather than organising something to do in my evenings, I'd drink to pass time, I almost lacked the energy/imagination to have a productive fulfilling life away from alcohol.
Recovery has meant addressing all of these things, very scary at first but the more I face up to them, the more alcohol looses it's hold on my life!!
