Hi ,
I am on week 4 of no contact . I agree it is hard , the spinning is the worst.
I tell myself that he is doing nothing extrordinary that I am missing. Last night I couldn't figure out the dumb lawnmower gas can. Sat down and had a good cry ! I wanted to call him , just to have him take care of it for me. But I remembered how I feel when we talk or see each other . The fear of going back to that crazt thinking is enough to stop myself. Sometimes it is good to have a healthy fear for your own sanity. Stay strong!