Originally Posted by
FreeOwl 
I remember feeling that way too.... when I quite for about a month and a half one time.
Felt really good about it. Felt like things had been "reset". Went back to it and was pounding back even more within a month.
Felt that way also after nearly making it to six months. "ahh, I can do this..."
That was just prior to almost two years of out of control drinking and another DUI.
Maybe looking back with brutal honesty on your life's journey with alcohol will help. Write it down. Start from the beginning. Write your stories. Don't gloss over the remorse, the regret, the pain, the disappointment, the physical impact, the emotional impact, the financial impact. Put it all down on paper. Just keep on writing until you can't scour out any more ugly details (because you just can't remember them. Because you were smashed).
Then read and re-read that every time you feel this way.
It's one thing to read others' stories and reminders... but it's our OWN stories that we must become fed up with in order to honor our choice of sobriety.
You can do this.
Freeowl - It really helped for me to see your journey. You worded it so perfectly, I have been believing the last week or so that I have been 'reset' and that perhaps I was a bit melodramatic in quitting alcohol FOREVER! The only thing that was dramatic was my behavior in how I abused alcohol.
I am going to take your suggestion and write down the brutal truth. I think reading and reliving it all in black and white would not allow me to believe that I could go back to social drinking. In fact, I may even post my writing here, so that I have a community around me to lovingly remind me when I ask questions like this again.
Thanks again, Freeowl. You have given me some very difficult homework. I am wincing at the truth already.