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Old 06-12-2014, 07:50 AM
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Achingforchange
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Originally Posted by Mentium View Post
There's a great metaphor in the AA Big Book about habitual Jay walkers. I hope people don't mind a longish quote but it is so fitting for those, like me who have relapsed habitually.

"Our behavior is as absurd and incomprehensible with respect to the first drink as that of an individual with a passion, say, for jay-walking. He gets a thrill out of skipping in front of fast-moving vehicles. He enjoys himself for a few years in spite of friendly warnings. Up to this point you would label him as a foolish chap having queer ideas of fun. Luck then deserts him and he is slightly injured several times in succession. You would expect him, if he were normal, to cut it out. Presently he is hit again and this time has a fractured skull. Within a week after leaving the hospital a fast-moving trolley car breaks his arm. He tells you he has decided to stop jay-walking for good, but in a few weeks he breaks both legs.
On through the years this conduct continues, accompanied by his continual promises to be careful or to keep off the streets altogether. Finally, he can no
longer work, his wife gets a divorce and he is held up to ridicule. He tries every known means to get the jaywalking idea out of his head. He shuts himself up in an asylum, hoping to mend his ways. But the day he
comes out he races in front of a fire engine, which breaks his back. Such a man would be crazy, wouldn’t he?

You may think our illustration is too ridiculous. But is it? We, who have been through the wringer, have to admit if we substituted alcoholism for jay-walking,the illustration would fit us exactly".
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Oh Mentium - You have painted such a picture of the absurdity. Why am I trying to talk myself into risking myself and my family? I am not only choosing to jaywalk in front of the bus, if I were to start drinking socially again, but I know that I am effectively grabbing the hands of my 2 kiddos and my husband to take out in the front of the bus with me.

Yes, I might make it to the other side - but why on earth would I choose to walk out in front of the bus with everything I care about most in this world? Crazy. Thank you for the visual. I am grateful.
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