Forgetting already...
I am 3 days away from having 30 days under my belt. The problem is that I am forgetting that this was really a problem. It feels like maybe I just let it all get out of control and that I could drink socially, but just never allow myself to cross the line to drinking at home alone. I am trying to come here everyday to read reminders of where this kind of thinking can get me...but truthfully, I feel like I don't want to read reminders - I would like to not know. I am thinking more and more about drinking socially again.
I know that I had a problem and that is why I quit, but my brain (yes - my AV) is saying, if I have the ability/willpower/strength to quit altogether - wouldn't I have the ability/willpower/strength to only drink socially? To not ever again choose to have it in my house?