Yes my thoughts do central around him but after 18 years together it's hard for them not to be. I struggle with understanding addiction and why someone could walk out after all this time because he wants to drink when he wants rather than seek help!!
I protected my children while he was at home but I can't anymore that's why I feel powerless.
I am trying to focus on me I haven't seen him in 2 weeks and no contact for 5 days now and I am feeling stronger everyday but it will take time for their to be days where I don't think about him or worry about him.
One thing though no matter what I am going through I always think of my kids and have been their to support them through this. They are the most important people in my life and always have been. They are my world!!!!