On day 4 and my emotions are nothing but haywire. Im mad and angry one minute then incrediby happy the next. Its very nerve wracking. Have BPD does not help.
Just tired of this roller coaster i keep putting myself on constantly. When is it going to stop for good, i say this now but what happens when its offered to me am I going to have the willpower to say now or will that voice jump in and say well just one wont hurt pop the pill crank my tunes and feel like I'm on top of the world. I dont want to, i want this over already.
The only thing that is keeping me from not snapping completely is my music, Just needed to get that off my chest I guess.
<--- Best way to describe how i feel inside my mind right now. Has anyone else gone through this with the mistress of oxycontin?