pinkynel

I am in day 3 of sobriety after 8 months of trying to 'manage' my drinking. I quit for a year, but like so many, pined for a return to the merry old days when I could tip a cocktail or two without ruining my life. Predictably, I discovered that those days are long gone. I think I knew it all along, but I didn't want to believe it.

My life is pretty good; but I love the buzz, daily. Sadly, over time the buzz costs me in the form of depression. I feel like I'm just moving through my life on auto pilot, without the clarity and joy I felt when I wasn't drinking for a year. I have some decisions to make now, and I need my wits about me.

I'm only on day 3, but I slept well last night, and am feeling pretty good. Walking is a huge help to me, and I have a devoted black lab to keep me company. I do have some anxiety, but nothing I can't handle so far.

I'm re-reading The Power of Now, and it is resonating. Quitting is different this time. I feel more informed. Less desperate. I will be patient.

Thank you for being here.