On day two again, so mad at myself
Just three and a half weeks ago i was 10 day's sober off of painkillers, and here i am again on day 2 after a three week binge. Im so mad at myself, here i am anxious and going through the withdrawal's all over again. When i had made it before so many days i was a better mother, better wife, better everything. I had a job,,, what triggered my relapse. getting fired because i told my boss i was going to quit smoking when i could afford patches. Really??? Because she was a non-smoker and against smoking in every form and decided to put me down for it, after i said that apparently i had "copped" an attitude. which i didnt. But that's what you get working in a work at will state where someone can fire you for no dang reason. So here i am upset with myself and so sick of this cycle. I feel alone, anxious. Thankfully the withdrawels aren't as bad as they were the last time but i am sick of doing this..... :;( sometimes i feel like just giving up.