Take not that a lot of this was a rant, I've hit bottom before and stayed clean for a year, 2 years at a stretch. But as soon as I stopped mixing meds I was fine. The only time I got into trouble with it was years ago when I mixed 4 different meds, opiates, benzos, muscle relaxers... but of course it wasn't enough and for the past say, 2 years I basically found a medium to where I now I wouldn't get that way again. Since I got off all the psychiatrists crazy pills, I became healthier. I wish I didn't find the medium because now it's hard to find a reason to quit.