I'm embarrassed to admit that, while I was still using, I went through my elderly mother's medicine cabinet looking for pain medication to steal.
She didn't have any. But had she, I would have taken it.
I was capable of disgusting behavior when I was using.
What scares me now is what I would do if the opportunity arose for me to pop an oxy if no one else knew about it. I would like to think I would not do it.
Proud of you.