After my first meeting at which I admitted I was an alcoholic I went out and got drunk. I just couldn't handle AA meetings. Talks of suicide, depression, misery. Yes some hopeful talk, but it didn't get through that day. I entered a treatment facility and got a larger perspective of my disease and what it does to people. I can now attend an AA meeting without panic and thinking what use is it. I still don't like negative long winded drunkalogues with no real purpose. I know others who say it helps them in recovery to know that others were in misery too and recovered from it.