It does get easier. I wanted to kick things and break things at first. I asked myself "why me" a lot too. And then someone said "why not me?" We never ask ourselves why me when something good happens to us. We always ask ourselves that when something bad happens. Or when something sets us apart. I wear glasses. I'm practically blind without them. I don't ask myself why me, or at least haven't in a long time. I just do the best, readjust my prescription when needed and get on with it.
I'm glad you posted your question because it made me think of the glasses analogy and made me realize that if I apply that to my own sobriety I will be just fine. It is what it is. Hang in there. I am sorry you are having a rough time with it tonight. You did well and with practice it gets easier.