Hey all,
Thanks for the responses on this.
I went to dinner last night, it was actually nice. I spoke a little about how I was feeling (a first for me!) and felt better for it. Most of these girls I've been friends with my whole life but the problem isnt them, its me. I'm still trying to figure out who I am sober. I'm scared of losing people close to me who wont like the sober me (They all hate the drunk me though, So I'm stumped as to why this bothers me, but like everything else at the moment it does) I left them all to it at quarter to 8 and went to an AA meeting. Being able to do that was pretty amazing.
What I have decided to do it to (try) and stop worrying so much about....well everything.
Hope everyone is doing great!
One day at a time.
L x