Originally Posted by David166

I was actually looking for a forum for like minded heavy drinkers like myself when i happened upon this forum via a google search.
Then i realised how pathetic i have become, and how my life revolves around alcohol. Alcohol is always on my brain. it is the start and end of my day.
It has resulted in numerous convictions for theft of alcohol from stores... Numerous beatings in random attacks whilst drunk, numerous injuries from self inflicted injuries whilst drunk.
I've had plenty of chances to go to rehab, whether court appointed or off my own back, but i always thought i could do it on my terms.
Who am i kidding?
i no longer have a job, friends have deserted me. i have driven my parents to edge of despair.
I lost my 41 yr old sister last year, just gave me another excuse to hit the bottle..
I am approaching 40 in 2 months and i feel its now or never.....
I'm sick of feeling sick. Even typing this feels like a load off my brain.......

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