You're not standing still tho.
You're on track to see the Dr and hopefully sort some of this stuff out. Thats a step closer than you have been ST.
as for envy and jealousy - I always try to remember we all wear masks at various times. None of us really know whats going on in someone else's life, yeah?
We all have pain too. I'm not sure it's productive to compare people's pain ST?
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