SueLiz, how are you doing now? I'm have been clean from Fioricet w/Codeine for a few days over a month. I had starting using 2 pills per day about 3-4 years ago, can't remember?, then got up to 3 pills a day for the past year and a half. 4 pills per day in the last six months after some stress hit my life. Like you, I finally had enough of the chasing, counting etc. I never imagined I would have this much trouble withdrawing, as I wasn't using a much as most addicts. However, after about a week of acute withdraw hell, I'm having more good days than bad, but still feel grey. Your description of pastel really hits home. Does it keep getting better? When I focus on the good, I realize that I am doing much better. I can't keep my mind off the bad. Constantly evaluating how I feel, am I depressed, anxious, irritable, PAWs, when will it end...I can't stop thinking about my feelings.