I'm just making myself out to be the victim again I guess, unhappy....My family is being stand offish to me as well and it's cause I told them the way I feel right now...I need them more then ever right now but also I don't really rely on them for that emotional support either, so I'm fine honesty...and then all other smaller bs that's taking place...I'm so sick of money too, like dealing with it and not having enough of it...more the not having enough of it...i wanted to call out today and just stay in bed and rest, this is probably the hardest time I had getting up not hung over..ungh...I need something and don't know what it is, I'm not talking about booze or drugs, I need to just feel a tiny bit better right now, I don't even wanna be happy that's not what I'm looking for, just a bit of certainty and a teeny bit of inner peace