Giving it a shot
I went to my first meeting tonight. I don't know if I'm ready for sobriety...I'm not going to lie, I've never really had the horror stories the old timers tell at the meetings. Honestly I'm so functional few people in my life know. But I know.
I know how I drink so I don't have to feel so badly about myself. How I hate the skin I'm in, how it hurts my health and prevents me from doing the things I could do. My therapist has been really helpful. I can't commit to staying sober all month...frankly, I'm just focusing on each day. Whether that will lead to sobriety or moderation, I don't know. But something feels different now. I have hope, which I haven't had in a long time.