Thank you all!
I told the drug centre sometimes I abuse and they say do not overdo it!!!
But is like giving me a bottle and say just have 3 sips a day...
I might make an appointment to tell him I am crossing the line...!
Is the only thing I can get hold of...
I can not go back to other stuff I loose it!
But I know sooner or later I have to come off too
And I am not ready!
Only the thought of being without anything frightens me!
I really am trying to change my life so I do not need to depend on ****
And I am worried I will loose another blood line...
Everybody thinks at home I am the strongest one... and they are so wrong!
I will die, you will die, Everybody I know will die!
what is important is what you do whilst you are alive!
If it was up to me I would be stoned through it,
but is not an option!
So have to make the most of it!
Night Night
Tomorrow back to the battle field!
Big Hug,
Aiko