I am ok today!
I overdid it on Friday... I just have crazy days...
Saturday lunch I had the car did not drink!
At night I was pushed to drink... at the end I raised my voice.
I DRINK WHAT I WANT!
They kept on drinking cocktails...
I did not like the bloke, uncomfortable situation playing pool!
I did not want to go to the club I could see shots all around and drinks.
And I danced sober... a struggle to be true...
So I just took more anxiety pills
But I got home sober 
Today my younger brother was taken to hospital... small heart attack warning!
Another one bites the dust! I hope he will be better tomorrow...
and I do not know if my mum will have to be operated on yet!
I stopped going to NA,
a bloke was freaking me out!
He is nice to me... but I do not trust him!
He told me since he left jail he just.... F****
And I know he likes me...so I keep away!
But I am still going to the Addictions Centre once every two weeks...
The addictions psychologist is really hard on me...
but it pushes me to take positive steps!
And I got SR
I am nearly alone with my problem!
and you are all helping me to survive awake!
I thank you all by heart
