I am uninspired
After a nice start mentally I have got uninterested in things again. I'm just going through the motions of life but not really caring about ****. I just want to hide and do nothing. Then this makes me restless.
So here I sit again in my car. Alone. Smoking a cigarette. And nothing to want. Right now that includes not wanting crack so that parts a good thing. But I don't care. I have no care about things.
I guess I can just breathe and be with this nothingness. I can pit down this phone and really just be with doing nothing for a little bit and maybe get grounded in the place of just being alive.
Ugh