Originally Posted by
fini 
i wanted "real life", Raider, and i had no idea, really, what that was. i also wanted "real me", and am equally slowly finding out that that's not who i thought i was/am.
I am trying to come to grips with the way it really is, not the way it was when you're wasted and don't care.
yes. that is the work of sobriety.
I think this is all so true. You may not be happy with your life when you are sober, but that's exactly where alcohol got you.
Making decisions, dealing with life and backing up those decisions sober is sometimes hard. That's part of being present, being a grown up and actively participating in the life you've been given. Sure, I want to give up sometimes. I want to rewind back 10 years and have what alcohol hijacked from my life. I won't lie.
But, everyone is right....for me it took 10 years to create this quagmire....I ain't gonna fix it overnight. That's part of our problem....we always want the quick fix!
