Thank you for your nice words...
I really feel I can not last some days...
others I just know I can not touch a thing and I accept it!!!!
But I HATE to see others drink!!
and the waiter...
what do would you like to drink????
I B*****Y Hate they ask me!!!
Cos what I want can not have
And I have a pause before I answer... cos Inside a doubt!
I just being sad lately,
working non stop...
and learning to cope awake under pressure...
my parents ill...
and my sober friends kick me when I need them the most!!!
Life is hard water to all of us!
And we have to walk on it!
I do not want to get back in the hole...
But I am worried I want more...
and at the end I end up with alcohol+benzo...or what I get hold of...
Somehow I will have to control the intake...
But not tonight... and tomorrow test day!!!