I am overdoing the anxiety pills...
I even danced in the kitchen... not feeling!!!
I have not felt the high for 34 days!
I am supposed to control the intake!
But is like: have a sip every 6 hours...
are they MAD?????
I am having so much pressure at work, I can not handle so much...
On top My mother has been unwell for a while!
Has the carotid artery blocked........
I know one of these days my father will fall sleep!
I always kiss him in case Is the last time I see him...
I Love the so much...
Tomorrow:
Will have to get the car first thing... a struggle!
Cos the pills last you know...
IŽll go to paint class (a fridge full of wine and beer... that I can never touch)
I can not paint well gone!!!!
after I go for lunch with two that drink like fish...
at night I am having a double date and going out to bars and clubbing!!!
I have not drunk or smoked pot for 128 days...no benzo 34...
and I am NOT going to drink!
But I am worried and stoned with anxiety pills!
Is not benzo... but I b****y like them!
I am weak...
I just want to get stoned and not go out!
Is all I want! :mog
I know this Can NOT BE!!!
I keep on switching......
Tomorrow night I have to be awake!
Or they notice I do not make sense...
I just do not learn,
I just want to relax!
I am damaging my liver... they keep telling me!
but I am an addict!!! I am an alcoholic !!!
I am B*****y weak!!!